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Day 17

Overall:

It’s been a slow, tired day today that started slowly with a late morning. So, it certainly has room for improvement, I’m hoping to make the latter half a much more productive one!

Exercise:

Swimming today! I hurt my arm at work (too much pipetting) so it was a kick based day for the most part

100 free full

200 free kick

50 free pull

2 x 200 free kick with flippers

4 x 50 fly kick with flippers

200 free kick no flippers

100 free full

or, more or less, I don’t remember all of the messing around bit while I tried to structure a kick-based workout.

Also, I figure I should record my times for 100 back so far

I had a 1:37 when I first tried, and a very tired 1:55, let’s see if I can get it down by the end of this! (I think my PB is 1:22)

Food:

Breakfast was my standard granola with raspberries and yoghurt, although I forgot to add the ground flax this time! Because of the rushing out the door so I wasn’t late for work this morning, I didn’t have time to pack a lunch, so I had to go out for lunch and unforuntately succumbed to the call of poutine.. not my healthiest choice. I had some microwave curry for dinner because I was too lazy to deal.

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Day 16

Today is going to be a better day. She says hopefully.

Overall:

It can be so easy just to slip into feeling sorry for yourself and sinking lower and lower and lower once you’ve dipped a bit.. Let’s hope I can beat that down, and get things back on track.

Exercise:

I’ll be honest, I’m not a massive fan of the kickboxing class. It’s a large class with a scary instructor, and it just doesn’t feel like me. But it’s something that I’m going to keep doing, because it encourages Dani to go, and because she encourages me.

Which is pretty much what happened, I’ll be sore tomorrow and I was seriously sweaty tonight, so thanks Dani!

Food:

It was a relief to get back to my good old greek yoghurt with raspberries and my favourite granola at the moment, this Kashi Cocoa Coconut one. Lunch was not as great, just one of the Michelina’s frozen things, some lemon meringue pie and some sweets, and dinner was mostly a Booster Juice because I couldn’t face solid food after kickboxing! And a little teeny snack on some caramel popcorn.

So all in all okay, but it’s been better

Days 12, 13, 14, 15

So I took a few days off, had an active (too active?) social life, and had a bad spell in terms of mental health. My eating kind of tailed off, accidentally of course, but goals for today include making sure I eat all three meals. (I’m definitely doing this whole “being an adult” thing well, right?)

I’m just going to gloss over these days, I did not do much exercise, and I didn’t eat well, but everyone has them. I was thinking originally of just excluding them from 100Days all together, but that would perhaps be dishonest of me.

Overall:

Another goal for today is to drink more water, because I think some of my iffy mood has been because I’ve been dehydrated. It currently seems like most people around me are giving off some sort of angst, and it’s taking a lot of strength not to let that get to me. Things I need to focus on for today is not letting my eating, my exercising, or my social life get tumbled up in all of the emotions around me like I have done recently.

Exercise:

There really wasn’t a lot on these days, I’ll be honest. However on Sunday (Day 14) I did manage to get to the pool. I didn’t do a lot, because I wasn’t running on a lot of sleep and I was pretty deep in a low for me, but it was nice to get in the pool anyway. I didn’t really keep track of my set, I just swam for a bit, then kicked for a long time, then pulled for a long time, and did a couple of lengths of butterfly kick and one-arm fly. It was enough just to get me out of the house to be honest.

Food:

I’ve for the most part managed to eat all three meals, except for sunday when my “dinner” was a smoothie, and I dont think that counts. Actually it was half a smoothie, I had the other half for breakfast on Day 15. However! I did manage to go grocery shopping on Day 15, so now I have more granola, fruit, and yohurt which has become a mainstay breakfast and is a nice constant in my life.

Day 4

I’m not even sure I want to go into detail on today. Suffice it to say that there was very little exercise, and my food choices tailed off just after lunchtime. I just got home from my pottery class, I’m exhausted, and my dinner is currently veggies and ranch sauce. Tomorrow’s breakfast will have to be something other that granola fruit and yoghurt, cause I currently only have yoghurt left. On the bright side I’ll be going swimming tomorrow.

This is one of those days I need to learn to budget for. It wasn’t a bad day, I wasn’t sat at home in fetal position, but it was a busy day, and I didn’t quite know how to deal with it. I’ve been out of the house for 13 hours today, and in that time, the only exercise I did was walk to work and walk to the university, and a bit of walking downtown.

Come to think of it, that was a lot of walking, can we count that? Let’s count that 🙂

And, really, my food choices weren’t that bad, the only not great one was a *tiny* bit of candy. I didn’t even eat the whole chocolate bar!

So, while there is nothing detailed because I’m hangry and tired, it wasn’t as bad a day as I’ve been making it out to be in my head. Which makes today’s lesson, stop catastrophizing things Rose, it doesn’t help anyone!

Over and out.

Day 3

Overall:

Today was a rough day at work, and when I got home, all I wanted to do was curl up into a ball and pretend it never happened. I think before I started doing this, and started saying the words “F*cking majestic” to myself as a little mantra, that’s exactly what I would have done, and I would have just passed it off as “another one of those bad days”.

But, once again, the internet keeps me accountable, because honestly one of the driving factors on not just giving in and giving the day up as lost was “I don’t want to put that on my blog, even if no one is going to read it”.

So, here I am,  and things I have learned: it’s going to take me a bit more practice to get the hang of this meal plan thing. I’m going to need to rework my meal plan I think. Also, I’ve heard John Green say a lot of things that perfectly capture how I feel about my body and what needs to change. This gem is from this video.

“For most of my life, I have thought of my body as an antagonist to myself, which often manifested in behaviours that were destructive to my body”

-John Green

This is completely true for me, and something I’m really striving to change. My destructive behaviours are not the same as John’s, for example I’ve never smoked, but the message is still there. In addition, almost all of my destructive behaviours are centred around food, whether that’s binge-eating, or starving myself, or “punishing” myself by eating food that I know will make me sick.

I’m working on it, I really am, and this here? This is helping.

On to the rest of the day:

Exercise:

I tried out my local rock climbing gym, the Guelph Grotto, for the first time today, because I love rock climbing and I figured nothing would get me out of the mood I was in like it. I didn’t manage to find myself a climbing buddy, so I went alone, and… to be honest I wasn’t impressed. I tried to judge the gym fairly, and tried to ignore the fact that there was a birthday party going on, so everywhere I went I was bombarded by 10-12 year-old boys, but even with that aside, it was a small gym with a large number of things and people in it. Wherever I went, I felt like there was someone directly above me, which is a far cry from my local gym at school, Grand River Rocks which has a whole load more space. I’m a bit claustrophobic, and I found myself panicking while I was there which is something I hadn’t done at a rock climbing gym for a long while. I’m not really afraid of heights, so I think it was the closeness of the area and how I felt like I was climbing on top of people all the time that did it.

In the Grotto, there is a little bouldering cave area with some rings and a space where you can stretch. Once I had climbed as much as I was going to be able to with the facility that busy, I headed up there to stretch a bit and see if I could get some abs and arms in there. There were children up there too, and I only managed to get a few things in before I could ignore them no longer.

So all in all not my best climbing experience, but it was at least a bit of a workout, and I’m sore enough that I feel satisfied.

Food:

Breakfast was again as planned, and the same as yesterday with lactose-free Greek yoghurt, strawberries, and granola. I’m even being good and using up the granola I don’t like before buying more! I’m going to need another breakfast plan soon though, because I’m running out of both fruit and granola.

Lunch was.. a bit hit and miss. I still have rice cakes and peanut butter left over, although I did eat some of them. I also drank the yoghurt that I was supposed to have yesterday (note to self, buy more peach Yop. That stuff is delicious, and helps keep you full). I tried to eat some potatoes, I really did, but they just weren’t a good texture, they still felt raw. New plan is to try baking them instead of frying or microwaving them to see if that helps. I also did not eat the oatmeal, because I was so sick of carbs. Taking a look at my meal plan, I really should have seen that, the whole meal was carbs with a tiny bit of protein, I needed some veggies in there! That’s something I’ll try to keep an eye out for when planning meals in future.

Because lunch was a bit unsatisfactory, I ended up snacking when I got home from work. I tried to keep the processed food to a minimum, because at the time it was all I wanted, but still ended up having a slice of lemon meringue pie (yes I know that was for dessert). I also had my new favourite snack, veggies (in this case cauliflower and broccoli) and ranch dressing. (Note to self, contrary to what I’ve believed all my life, I prefer cauliflower over broccoli. Maybe try out just cauliflower next time? But good call on getting the pre-washed and pre-cut up ones, it may seem excessive and expensive, but it’s a lot easier to convince yourself to actually eat veggies if you minimize the preparation time. At least for now, stick with it. Because I’m honestly not sure if you would have eaten the veggies and dip if you’d had to wash them and cut them up yourself.)

Dinner was *almost* a struggle. I live in a neighbourhood where almost every fast-food chain in existence is within walking distance, and especially when you’re coming home late after climbing, its really tough to resist.. But I did! I improvised a meal with leftovers rice and a pre-packaged Indian curry, which was spicy, warm, and satisfying 🙂 I may also sneak in a couple of chocolate covered digestive biscuits for dessert.

That’s all for today, I can’t bring myself to re-do my meal plan just now, so I’ll work on that tomorrow hopefully, for now my hands hurt a bit from climbing and I could use a shower and an early night!

Take good care, and if you are a person that is reading this, please leave me a comment! Especially if you’re doing your own 100Days, I’d love to hear other people’s experiences.

 

Day 2

Overall:

I think, like John Green, the hardest part of this whole thing is going to be keeping my eating on track. I mostly stuck to the plan today, but I fell down after work and binge-ate, so I’m going to not be too mad at myself for it, but I also recognize I can’t do that very often. Other than that, so far so good, I’m still firmly in the honeymoon stage of this adventure.

Exercise:

I went swimming, which is hands-down my favourite type of exercise (shoutout to my fantastic swim-buddy Nick).

My set was as follows:

(N. B. for those who aren’t swimmer types free=freestyle=front crawl, kick is just kicking with a flutterboard, and pull is just the arms)

100m free

100m free kick

100m free pull

100m free

4 x 25m free kick with flippers (surprisingly hard, but I loved it!)

4 x 25m free “six kick switch” (kick six times on one leg, then switch legs) with flippers

6 x 25m free pull with paddles (not a fan. This is a difficult one because you really have to watch your form, and I realized how off my form was. I think I’m going to avoid the paddles for a while until I’m more confident in my form because I know how easy it is to hurt yourself with it.

After all that I only had a short while left in the lane swim, so I did a few lengths of dolphin kick and one-arm butterfly with the flippers, which were exhilaratingly fast, and finished it all off with 50m fly. I struggled to get through that 50m even with flippers, so I’m going to make that my swimming goal, to do the 50 fly comfortably without flippers.

I also had a little dance party in my room after my shower, and to be honest, I’m counting it as exercise, it was a pretty intense dance party if I do say so myself!

Food:

Breakfast was on track, with lactose-free greek yogurt, strawberries and granola. Lunch was *almost* on track with kale and cucumber salad and a fibre one bar, but I managed to leave my drinkable yoghurt at home, which may have explained why I was so hungry when I got home from work.

After work I came home and felt like I needed to snack, so I turned to Chocolate Chex cereal. I mentioned earlier that this stuff is my weakness, so… I had two bowls, which finished the box. I think that this definitely hindered my swimming a bit, I can feel a big  difference between when I eat well and when I don’t.  I’ll also have to change up my meal plan a bit because that cereal was scheduled for later this week and it is already gone. I’m going to try to avoid buying the stuff in future, because I tell myself every time “I’ll make it last” and I don’t think I’ve ever made it last longer than a couple of days, which is a bit scary.

Dinner almost went off the rails too after, but I was saved by the fact that I had told the internet I was going to have a veggie burger so I might as well make the veggie burger. So, thank you internet! You are already helping me stay on top of things 🙂 I have a terrible tendency just to let the rest of a day go after one slip up, like the cereal binge, so I’m hoping this blog will keep me accountable and remind me that one slip-up isn’t the end of the world.

I’ve also realized I forgot to account for dessert in my meal-planning post! Personally, I feel like dessert is important, it’s good to reward yourself for a good dinner and a good day, and it’s also good not to starve yourself of things you love, especially if you’re fully capable of eating them in moderation. I don’t have dessert every day, but it’s nice to have it in sometimes. Because swimming is quite so late, I won’t be having dessert tonight, however I do have a lemon-meringue pie in the fridge for the future.

Thank you to all of the people who read and liked my posts yesterday! I’m really glad to see  you all 🙂 Goodnight for now!

 

 

 

allupinmyyarn is trying

It’s been a while.

There are all kinds of excuses, it’s been a rough year, I’ve been focusing on school, keeping Ravelry  updated has been more of a priority (except I haven’t done that either).

But really, I’ve just sort of let myself go, as a blogger, as a podcaster, as a person pretty much. So, I’m going to try to change that, I’ve been working on it for a while, but I figured having it all typed up would make me more accountable.

So, welcome to allupinmyyarn does 100Days. If you were looking for knitting, I’m sorry, this isn’t knitting. To be honest, I’ve lost my creative spark recently because I’ve been so far removed from myself, and from a functional human being. 100Days is about exercising and (hopefully) eating right. And from that, maybe I’ll get back the mojo, not just for knitting but for life in general!

It was inspired by the 100Days youtube channel with John Green, one of my absolute favourite YouTubers, and I wanted to do it because of the way he talks about it. Like John, my whole life I’ve felt like my body and my mind were at war, and that my body was just a thing I had to put up with so I could keep having my mind. I don’t remember a time in my life where I didn’t hate my body, for how I looked, for how crappy I felt, for how much my stomach hurt, etc. But through his exercise and eating journey, John realized that his body and mind were on the same side, they were both *him* and for me, that was revolutionary. So I figured I’d try it, no harm in it right? Hopefully I’ll pick up friends and exercise buddies along the way.

So, let’s get started!

Day 1:

My exercise drive only started at about 8:30pm today, and there was absolutely no way I was going outside in the dark. So this was all based on YouTube videos.

The first was a HIIT workout. I thought, seven minutes can’t be so bad, right? I was dead wrong, I honestly couldn’t keep up, and I think I struggled with literally every move. However, I still got my heart rate up and sweat buckets, so goal accomplished I guess. I’d love to try this again nearer the end to see what changed.

After that, I wanted a nice relaxing cool-down. I’m a massive fan of yoga, and I especially like Brett Larkin’s channel. This video is technically a morning routine, but I didn’t think I’d be able to do more than 10 minutes, so I went for it anyway. I struggled with this one too, but not as much, most of the issues were that my knees hurt against the mat in a lunge. A pad for my knees in these positions would be a good investment, and I’d like to try it with that because I feel like I’d fare better.

In terms of food, I… didn’t do a great job, but in my defence I wasn’t really thinking about it today. Breakfast was a Boost shake, which was a bit gross, but I had no other food in my house. Lunch was a kale salad and peanut butter on rice cakes was okay. Dinner was raw cauliflower and broccoli dipped in ranch, and a few greek potatoes. Snacks were.. excessive to be honest. I had a lot of Chocolate Chex cereal, which is a terrible weakness of mine and I shouldn’t have bought, and a chocolate bar. Around lunch I also had part of a PopTart.I’ll do better tomorrow!

The focus on this adventure is on acceptance, my body is a part of me, and I need to take care of it for me. I’m not going to be harsh on myself if I fall off the horse, or if I had a bad day, those things happen. However, I’ve found myself saying “oh it’s just a bad day” more and more, and I can’t say that every day. Because bad day’s are a good reason if they’re just that, days. But if it turns into weeks or even longer, something big needs to change. Which is why I’m here 🙂

That’s all for now, let’s see if I can actually keep this up. For once in my life I actually want to see something like this through, hopefully keeping a record of this will motivate me.